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i recognized your handwriting even better than i recognized my own. it started out straight, then ran down diagonally down the page, and no letter looked the same, but i loved it. it reminded me of playing football in the rain and snuggling on the couch on cold nights, watching movies we weren't really watching, and meeting under that ugly old tree in the park so we could sit and breathe together.

it reminded me of when you looked up from your journal and poked my forehead with your pencil and said, "you're beautiful, you know that?"

x

you loved to write things. you loved to write on things. you would trace your finger in puddles, and read aloud what you were writing in the water. (i would even find little notes and random thoughts written in my books and on post-its.) you would dip your finger in red paint (that eerily reminded me of blood), and marked words on my ribcage, my arms, my spine.

you wrote about what you dreamt about last night, and what your favourite color was that day, and how much you loved me and how much i loved you.

but you also wrote about nightmares and how i looked lovely with your blood colored finger prints all over my skin.

x

i searched for your forest green, broken glass eyes one day, and i couldn't find them. i went back to that ugly old tree in the park and found you there, staring at me. those weren't the eyes i had been looking for, i remembered thinking. those eyes were empty.

you held out a wrinkled, folded up piece of paper to me, and as soon as my finger tips touched it, you turned around
and
walked away.
and the paper fell to the ground because
you never let me grasp it before you disappeared.

x

i had left it on my desk and read a sentence a day, savouring your handwriting with my eyes so i could pretend you were still here
and the last word written was also the word i thought of
when i realized that you only wrote of things you were afraid to say

"gone."
[link]
number one.

i've decided to try this out.
i hope it isn't too bad.
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NightlyLies's avatar
This is incredibly beautiful.